Not much to say… My computer is broken and I came to a friend’s house just to.. er.. blog!

Of course I want to wish you all a nice holiday!!!

Happy Easter!!

Im listening to the Gladiator sound track. It is a tape recorded by  a friend, but I still can recognize  Lisa Gerrard´s voice..

Beautiful song. It is like those that touches something deep inside. In the mind or heart, I´m not sure yet of the difference, but it makes me feel things. I suddenly start missing something. Strange how I cannot identify it. Suddenly there comes this melody that is so familiar, but I still cannot place.

Amazing how such things can bring out such different kinds of emotion and thoughts. Curious to realise how much something from outside can be so near, so.. part of us. Yes, I´m still mentioning the song. In such a time when I don´t feel my ground anymore.. In a time where all my beliefs and dreams.. and hopes and faith are tested.. and love.. and my love is  away from me, is a song like this… it´s a sample of miracle, it´s something someone had love and inspiration to create that helps me keep me alive.

From the body to the soul

 Where our hearts lead… we must go

“The song ‘May It Be’, featured in the 2001 Tolkien-based film Lord Of The Rings, was nominated by the 74th Annual Academy Awards in the category of Best Achievement In Music In Connection With Motion Pictures (Original Song).

Enya is scheduled to perform the song ‘May It Be’ live at the Oscars. Enya will be joined by Nicky and Roma Ryan at this year’s Academy Awards”…

I have wanted to hear that for ages! I have been fond of Enya´s music since I was 14! As far as I know, she rearely does live presentations. That is mainly due to the complexity of the type of music she performs- I have read once. It does not matter now, she´ll be there, at the Oscars!!! I feel like a child, but I´m really glad for that. There will be two passions of my life together: music and movies… I have not watched all the nominees, but Lagaan is  one of my favorites… Anything that comes from India is indeed amongst my passions…

Talk about movies, Ice Age is finally here! I saw its trailer and I start laughing as I remember it. I love those kind of movies/cartoons. They make me laugh and they also help me unwind. I´ll watch it tomorrow. Then, on Sunday I´ll get to see the Oscar.. 

It seems I´ll have some fun this weekend!!!

Great rivers are born from little drops of water. Work is not lacking in my life at the moment, and this is a great time for me to buckle down in both my personal and professional life. Work is not something I have ever shied away from. I embrace it today and end the day feeling the satisfaction that comes from jobs well done.

Today I doubted my happiness. I have started questioning myself. I could not believe, with so many heart-breaking things happening, how can I manage to be in peace? Maybe this optimism is part of me. I no longer have the feeling that things will end up well. Now, instead of just hoping, I work for the good things to happen.

Perhaps, I no longer hope. Or should I say expect?

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This is what happened today after a 3-hour rain. And yes, I was on the street… But that was ok. It just took me 4 hours to make a 10km distance drive home…

Have a nice dry week!!

“Any fool can risk his life; it takes a hero to risk his heart.”~Xena, warrior princess

Deep down everyone wants to be a hero. This thought comes from a quote posted by vineet and remembered by Azbrit. This blog came to mind as I read Sada. She mentioned friendship. Xanga has been really inspiring lately, I guess…

I´m not the right person to discuss that, since I have started thinking about friendship just some time ago. Before that, I just felt it.

That is indeed a very complex thing. As I believe people´s character is sharpened by cultural points and even time, it is difficult to say anyone is able to find real friends. I start asking that to myself. I wonder what kind of friend I am to the ones around me.  And I also wonder what a true friend would be like. The one who´s always there when you need? Then, what kind of friend would you be? The one who just look for help?

I´m surrounded by people. And people who like my work, people who dont, people who I usually hang out with, phone to, etc… I´m not sure I can consider them friends, but they are part of an exciting part of my life: my daily life. I run the serious risk of being hurt by any of them, but I still think of the stuff i will have learned by then. Seriously, one should not meet anyone and expect the day one will be betrayed. Also, one should not put one´s happiness in the other´s hands. I have done this before. It was like giving up my own freedom.

Sometimes I feel lonely. I look around, see those I like taking care of themselves. Dating, having fun, having children (God, I´m getting old…) and this sense of loneliness almost slices my heart. But then, I come to the conclusion that sometimes i don´t add myself as a friend. Then how can I demand that from anyone else? Then, the feeling of loneliness gives place to self respect. Therefore… I feel able to look for the friend I want in other´s.

Sada has also made me remember another point. The only thing I´m really afraid in life. I fear reget. I dont want to see myself in an advanced age, thinking about the time I lost protecting myself from people. About the times I didnt give myself the chance to be happy because of fear.  I want to look at my bruisers and know I have had some learning from that too. And yes, I do want to have friends around.

Even if it is just for us to fool young people and their fear of living.

Have a nice week!

ps. Dauro will be a father!!

 i feel peace now.

I guess it is. if it is not, then is something like it. Something
made from the same formula, or intended to cause the
same sensation. i have little treasures gotten in
between of  my everyday life that I confess I would not
trade it for any kind of money! I see beauty and magic
in the small deeds. and I feel I do magic too.  I have
just spent 2 hours on the phone with a student of mine.
She is now a great friend- even that miracle I´m able to
do… make a teacher and student become friends! She
told me she wants to become a teacher as soon as she
finishes the course. And she told me my classes have
inspired her to do so.

I have so much love for what I do, that it could not be
any different. I simply can´t imagine myself not having
pleasure when working. And how amazed do I get when I
can reach people with my excitement! I´d hate to be
happy alone. I have to share it!

I wanted to write today about betrayal. Read a blog by
vineet and kept thinking about that. I have been reading
and hearing much about friendship, love and their
disadvantages. A very close friend of mine has recently
told me of his lack of trust in anyone. He´s presented
me the risks of loving others… he´s shown me how often
it can lead people to suffering.  He is not the only one
to tell me that.  So, my doubt is; Does it have to be 
like that? Is this a rule? “Love, therefore you
suffer”  Huh?

Sometimes I remember one of my Literature  teachers. He 
once told us of the topics that writers have chosen to
write their novels or plays throughout time. He wanted
us to understand that they´re always the same kind.
Human beings have been interested in the same topics for
ages.. What he wanted to show us was that, there are
somethings in us that have been and will always be the
same. No matter when or where. Maybe how…

Thus, is this fear of ‘something may go wrong anytime’
inside our unconscious? Why is is easier for people to be
used to suffering? What is it that some fear happiness? 
I know, reality is not the same to everyone, but I just
speak for myself.

I am a very lucky woman. I am free to choose anything in
my life. I have chosen love. And I see love in whatever
I do. Even when things are not fine, I try to see it in
a different point of understanding because of love. 

i know, I am out of my point now. But the thing is.. I
am happy. There are some sad things happening around,
but I have faith. And I trust in good results. I haven´t
read much from people saying they are happy, but this is
dedicated to my happiness. I may be sad and worried
tomorrow, but still.. I´ll have this feeling of
plenitude.

And this, I really wanted to share.

Have a nice weekend!

Not only do I want to wish you a happy day, but also I wish pieces of happyness on all the days of your life. Let me thank you in public  for all the nice writing you have presented us so far!Thanks for all your nice and sincere comments, your visits and your kindness.

Have a happy birthday Michel!