March 15, 2002
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i feel peace now.
I guess it is. if it is not, then is something like it. Something
made from the same formula, or intended to cause the
same sensation. i have little treasures gotten in
between of my everyday life that I confess I would not
trade it for any kind of money! I see beauty and magic
in the small deeds. and I feel I do magic too. I have
just spent 2 hours on the phone with a student of mine.
She is now a great friend- even that miracle I´m able to
do… make a teacher and student become friends!
She
told me she wants to become a teacher as soon as she
finishes the course. And she told me my classes have
inspired her to do so.
I have so much love for what I do, that it could not be
any different. I simply can´t imagine myself not having
pleasure when working. And how amazed do I get when I
can reach people with my excitement! I´d hate to be
happy alone. I have to share it!
I wanted to write today about betrayal. Read a blog by
vineet and kept thinking about that. I have been reading
and hearing much about friendship, love and their
disadvantages. A very close friend of mine has recently
told me of his lack of trust in anyone. He´s presented
me the risks of loving others… he´s shown me how often
it can lead people to suffering. He is not the only one
to tell me that. So, my doubt is; Does it have to be
like that? Is this a rule? “Love, therefore you
suffer” Huh?
Sometimes I remember one of my Literature teachers. He
once told us of the topics that writers have chosen to
write their novels or plays throughout time. He wanted
us to understand that they´re always the same kind.
Human beings have been interested in the same topics for
ages.. What he wanted to show us was that, there are
somethings in us that have been and will always be the
same. No matter when or where. Maybe how…
Thus, is this fear of ‘something may go wrong anytime’
inside our unconscious? Why is is easier for people to be
used to suffering? What is it that some fear happiness?
I know, reality is not the same to everyone, but I just
speak for myself.
I am a very lucky woman. I am free to choose anything in
my life. I have chosen love. And I see love in whatever
I do. Even when things are not fine, I try to see it in
a different point of understanding because of love.
i know, I am out of my point now. But the thing is.. I
am happy. There are some sad things happening around,
but I have faith. And I trust in good results. I haven´t
read much from people saying they are happy, but this is
dedicated to my happiness. I may be sad and worried
tomorrow, but still.. I´ll have this feeling of
plenitude.
And this, I really wanted to share.
Have a nice weekend!
Comments (13)
Beautifully said, Shy. You should be proud of having such a positive outlook. Your heading really says it all: “I am Lotus”.
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You are truly blessed. I came to xanga today to write about how love does not truly exist, and yet, your weblog has inspired me otherwise. It is not about just ourselves, it’s about all that surrounds us, and that feeling of peace you’ve spoke about. Peace is the ultimate feeling, love should follow it.
Kuddos for a great weblog Lotus.
The world will always be full of people on the two sides, optimism, and pessimism. I know for sure where you stand… not so sure about myself though… hope I can decide… your blog will definitely help… thx
A second comment (?). Actually, http://www.xanga.com/vineet has a comment in his blog that fits your blog. He said or rather quoted Lucy Lawless, the T.V. actress, in and as “Xena, warrior princess” – so, in reality it was probably a writer who said: “Any fool can risk his life; it takes a hero to risk his heart.”
Very nice blog,Lotus.Sometimes I felt like you say” At peace”But then I felt guilty,like I had not right to be happy. I suppose there is not much I can do it about it,it’s in my genes,probably. Or perhaps I have to pay the sins of precedent lives.Or is the catholic religion that makes us believe that we are borne with a capital sin.
Thanks for sharing Lotus,I love your blogs,you know.
Carlo
Hey Lotus, feel free to share emotions of any color, at any time. The power of expression is something I we are blessed with. Optimism and Pessimism, heh.. we need them both.
-NΛVĐΞΞP
You are right Shy to share us your happinesses and to say Love is the only main thing . Love in all its forms .
Thank you for your this nice blog
Amitié Michel
how nice
…that truly was pretty inspiring blog too
Happy St. Patrick’s Day!
beautiful blog! it’s wonderful how you’re able to authentically say that you love what you do.. that’s really important, because w/out that as a catalyst for our drives & passions, there simply wouldn’t be any meaning, or foundation.
equally as wonderful, is the fact that you say you’ve inspired your student to want to teach also. sort of like a domino-effect.. your positivity radiates & others are affected by it. those are the simple things in life that resonate so beautifully. thank you for sharing this one w/ us all!
much
as always.. 