I could use some love now.

                You could give me some.

The way you want, I dont mind.

I just want you… To feed my soul.

And hear my cry.

And talk to me.

And touch me the way you used to.

The way

I want

you.

It is not Valentines Day. And if I say it is lovers day, I fear it may cause a misunderstanding in English. It is another Saint´s day- Anthony- but maybe the idea is the same as in Valentines’.

On June 12, everyone who has a beloved one is celebrating here.  Lovers treat themselves to romantic stuff. Around the cities, among the green and yellow flags because of the Cup, there are all sizes of paper hearts and shades of flowers.

I´m not sure I´m getting any gift this year, but I indeed got a really nice one an year ago. I got Shy- my first site, and the one I use to write my blogs in Portuguese.

I feel I did not only got a place to write. Before getting it, I even doubted I could do so.  Then, every discovery has been amazing to me. Since learning how to change the profile picture, posting snaps, making links, changing banners and background… Simple things to some, but that to me they have really made difference!

And the people I have met here… HHmm… they are really nice people to know. I see, I don´t get a lot of comments, but there are some really special regular readers that I feel, enjoy leaving me some good words… There are also those who come once in a while, and the ones who come just once… All of them are welcome and their visits are always appreciated.

I have learned a lot in here. It has been a pleasure to be part of Xanga.

Shy´s Xangaversary!!!!

I have finaly found out how to change my background… Is that normal to be so happy for that?

I just wanted to know why do we miss somethings so much?

How come such a soft feeling is able to hurt so deeply and be so constant?

Nostalgia is abstract and,it is past…

Useless and nonsense… And I´m not sure where it hurts.

Sometimes I think that making all this retrograde feeling disappear is impossible. Even if life allows meetings, everything should be new.

I´m not complaining though. It is just a thought that came to mind while I enjoy some blissful moments.

I´m mentioning a strong feeling… that is stuck…and dead.

Brazil 4   China 0

hehehehe….Whoohoo…!!!

ps. What happened to the Italian team???

And then, I´m back again. Thing s happen with some explanation, but I won´t add any reasons nor take any conclusions not even mention any theory or hypotheses. All of a sudden, inside my world, things have lost their meaning. Everything is free and worthless.  How funny my new condition is!  I dont need to worry about happiness anymore. Don´t need to worry about the lack of meaning in whatever happens around, the whys and becauses and the boring happy ending meaning stuck in every truth.

I´m light as in all meanings of it.

I have been unwilling to carry on with my blogging life. And that is a bit due to the vanishing of my virtual inspiration. I felt kind of lost in this huge empty space, and the lack of his presence has made my stay here seem a bit nonsense. But I don´t worry anymore. He knows how to find me.

This short time spent in Curitiba has helped me think clearer. I must say that the whole environment has helped too. It was not so cold, but colder than here in Sao Paulo. And the sky… For long I haven´t seen such a light grey one. I shall write more about it when I have the snaps developed.

But my perception has changed. And I know now it is for the best. What I didnt expect was that I had to go through it the hardest  way. And I´m still changing. That means the hard way is not gone yet.  But I feel happy to realise that, I can learn and still keep my essence during such a hard time.

I am indeed a Lotus.

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