July 11, 2002
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I´ve always known that not everything depends on us. That sometimes you try, and try, and try, and nothing happens. I won´t say that I got nowhere trying to do the things I had wanted, but I have indeed gotten far from where I had desired to.
I have experienced a sensation of weakness when I realised that some choices didnt depend on me anymore. They didnt belong to me anymore. I took some time to think about what really belongs to me and I had a feeling of emptiness. That feeling one has when one knows there´s nothing left to do and I have accepted that.
With a blocked way, just for a while, I was forced to take another route. Another path. I have had a week among children. I had never been close to children till then, and what a nice experience that was! It has distracted me. It has made me laugh. I´ll miss them, they´ll return to Bahia tomorrow.
I won´t deny that I still miss the one that I´d like to be with. I still miss him. And I wont deny that there should be a law that prohibited people to run away with our hearts.
However, I won´t deny that as everything in life, this too will pass. If now I don´t have what I want, at least I do hope the future will give me that chance. I know I will work for that. And choose and change paths as many times as I need.
Comments (11)
i would love that LAW!
very nice blog. thoughtful.
It can be very hard to be accepting and give up the sense of control. It is a lesson I also need to learn.
Being vulnerable as you are now can also bring new opportunities. Keep your eyes and heart open for them.
it’s really weird. i have a friend who loves lotus. tell me why you like the flower please?
the thing with life is that we don’t have much say in what life actually throws at us, be what we do have a choice in is how we react to those things!
We don’t have a lot of say in what comes our way, but I think you have a wonderful outlook.
yeah… you know… things come and go…
“Como as ondas do mar…”
Hey, I agree there should be that law.
May u get all that u wish for !
You are so right honey……I make great decisions sometimes to be stopped by someone elses fear.
Can i say “I LOVE YOU” and your blogs without sounding corky???????
It’s just that every single word you just wrote over there rings so true to me, and i feel exactly the same, and i just keep hoping like a child that somehow things will make themselves better and that we’ll find our way back into our loved one’s heart and arms once again. I know… i’m really sounding corky right now
thanks for dropping by..
Such a lovely blog… the first I am reading in a long while… what a welcome
thanks!