January 3, 2003

• ~ Research published in the Journal of Personal and Social Psychology suggests that people who make more than one resolution at a time have difficulty adhering to them.
  
  

  With that said I no longer have to wonder why I can never follow through with New Year’s resolutions, (or any resolutions for that matter.) I always bite off a bit more than I can chew. It never fails that when come time to make resolutions, I always have a page-long list of things that need to be “resolved.” A few days ago I started a list of resolutions (that will never be finished…so it seems) Mid-list I came across a quiz in my Natural Health Magazine titled Making Your New Years Resolution Stick. Needless to say, I failed terribly. I never follow through with anything. I have never met any one that gives up as much, and as often as I do, the cause of which being that I am trying to solve (or accomplish) 3000 problems (things) at once. Maybe my resolution this year should be to solve my problems one at a time. As opposed to starting to find a way to solve 3000 problems, then give up mid-problem(s) due to frustrations caused by the inability to resolve the problems because all that can be thought about are the amount (and severity) of the problems.(as a whole) Whoa! I think I even lost myself on that one. So tonight and tomorrow I have to complete the task (and that task only) of determining what my New years resolution for 2003 should be. I have already decided that I will deter from the common resolutions of the physical, and lean more toward the resolutions of the spiritual (inner self and religious.) My current list reads similar to this; (needless to say some of these have been eliminated due to lack of spiritual depth.)
  1. don’t waste so much time
  2. stop eating dairy
  3. budget (stop overspending)
  4. don’t watch so much TV
  5. refrain from spontaneous buying
  6. read more
  7. get up earlier to spend time with God and myself before my crazy days start (yoga, journal writing, meditations, affirmations)
  8. volunteer for good causes
  9. get organized
  10. try new (scary) things
  11. learn to say no
  12. STOP PROCRASTINATING
  13. listen for god’s voice
  14. listen to your conscience (as opposed to ignoring it… like usual)
  …and many more.
  There are so many things I want to accomplish in the coming year, and I am more than elated to have another year to work on myself, and fit another piece on the puzzle of my life. I welcome 2003 with open arms and I only hope I allow myself to grow as much as I did in the concluding months of 2002.
  

  
  

  *****I wrote this while in the woods. Literally. My ten-day trip to my friend´s farm was amazing! So great, I had forgotten what it is like to wake up with the sound of nature. To look out the window and see mostly green. And yes.. I had already learned what it is like to be in a place where people really place God in first place in their lives. Those are hard to find. Although I was far… I felt home. I may know now i do not have a home, and maybe I will never have a place to call mine. But it is nice to kow I can be anywhere and yet do not feel lost and alone. I´m blessed. And healing, and happy. Great way to start, isn´t that?

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