May 6, 2003
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Why?
So I went outside, dragged out my chair, blanket in hand and music between my ears. It’s midnight with wind a whistling. I needed to clear my mind. I want to see the stars, babe. You know how I’ve always loved the infinite space. I swore to always be the dreamer, and yet, look at me, really, look at me. What do you see? Defeat? I don’t want to succumb to the books and the numbers, why did I? Why should I? What’s wrong with being poor and a-wandering? I don’t need a test to measure my intelligence. I know I’m brilliant, because when I’m under the stars I forget everything…right then, just then, I could throw everything away, and that’s when I’m brilliant.
Nodding my head to the music, it’s like so many times before, careless, carefree. Maybe I’ll be on the streets someday with my bohemian friends. We’ll jam to a song while the rest of the world hustle to subways and deadlines. Is it selfish? Do you think it’s selfish that I’ll let people down? Do you think it’s selfish to be happy? Everything’s so confined under the abyss of stars… I can be part of the stars you know. When I die, my particles will spread and stretch to the farthest corners of the universe. Will I be happy then?
Recall to when I was content, those were the days when I didn’t care, and all I wanted was happiness. I haven’t been content in so long, but today, just for today, let me not be only happy or nostalgic, but content.
Be stronger
Fly Higher
Don’t be afraid
Sometimes…simplicity can beat all my warped metaphors. ::sigh:: ::smile:: ::laugh::
Is it just a foolish dream?
IS IT?!?
Comments (8)
I don’t think being happy and content is a selfish act. Guilt makes us think so. But isn’t it better to have lived a content life than a life as a holy martyr?
i have always believed that the people on the streets..the “bums” “homeless”… whatever people want to call them….are some of the most brilliant people on earth…..they have escaped all those traps that we set on ourselves…and they have found freedom…and they don’t care what everyone else thinks of them….
sets me thinking..also wondering bout vcrimson’s comment..it is really true…
If only I could be immortal. Then I would not have to worry about food or water.
I could lie and be free in the knowledge that I can enjoy life because it will never end.
Another selfish thought that will never come true.
Arcisonarollwithcommentstoday…
I see freedom as something intangible and unreachable until we change our definition and perspective on what this word means, then the stars are no longer our captors.
Forgot the eprops!
Buskers are great! I love to hear them. Go out and sing a song on the streets, YAY
I think we should always fight to be happy… even if it may sound selfish…
Only be sure not to step on anyone’s lifes though…
take care