June 23, 2003
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dream has gone to sorrow
emptiness of tomorrow
I have no place to go
desire for a heart of a home
oblivion is waiting
I feel my world collapsing
all fall on top of me
I feel everything’s wrong
it’s not supposed to be
I feel myself gone blinded
no longer I can see
I feel tomorrow disappearing
the way it’s going to be
right in front of me.
A dear friend has been concerned about me. He said nothing I’ve written lately is “happy.” I didn’t realize I was giving out those kind of vibes. I really am doing good. You know, we all have our ups and downs and last week wasn’t particularly good, but who doesn’t have problems? If you don’t, please give me your secret.
I just haven’t had much to share lately but I will give you some random things encircling my mind at the moment. Here we go:
I believe in destiny but I also believe I have the choice to follow it or not. That’s where I’m struggling career wise. I know what I can do but I don’t know what I’m meant to do. Maybe that’s my problem. I want to be significant. I want to be needed. I like the idea of there being a plan…just for me. Foolish and naive maybe – that’s the way I am.
You want something happy? I think I have a crush on someone. Crushes are the best. Makes me smile all the time for no reason. And then people wonder why I’m smilling and it makes me smile even more. I know, I’m such a girl. He is handsome, intelligent, funny, interesting…and is not interested in me in that way. That’s why they call them crushes right? *sigh* No matter, it’s still fun. Love the butterflies. *
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When’s the last time you had a crush?
ps.: Something interesting I watched this weekend
Comments (8)
They say the childless are truly blessed. WHat about the loveless?
i guess that is the danger of pouring your thoughts in a blog….you might just have a couple things you want to get out of your mind, so you post them, and then the rest of the world thinks you are sad and depressed! i guess that is what keeps me from posting what i really think alot of the times….i don’t want people to think i’m miserable…because i’m not….but it’s good to be able to get things off of your chest!
as for a crush….wow..i think it’s been all too long since i’ve had one!
crushes are always a blast! flertar com a vida nos deixa vivos! sério! temos que ter paixões! não só por pessoas (ou pela mesma pessoa várias vezes) mas por coisas que fazemos e buscamos. Por exemplo, hoje sou apaixonado pelo meu bf, mas tb estou apaixonado por uma livro q estou lendo (veja no meu post) e tb pela idéia de uma negócio meu dar certo. É isso aí girl! Paixão is the key!
I dont think any of us really know what we’re meant to do. And not all of us even know what we can do. I think that is the first step towards achieveing your dreams.
Hope you had a great weekend though.
Actually if you believe in destiny you don’t have the choice to follow it or not, because whatever you do that wikk be your destiny.
Hehe. Very clever, not?
Ciao and very happy wishes for you.
I cant remember the last time I had a crush.. I think it was in high school.. sigh.. so long ago. I wonder what hes doing now.
Ah ! crushes are beautiful things – treat them, indulge them and prolong them – nothing quite else like it. as far as destiny goes – well … do whatever you are required to do and do it well – for at that point in time that IS what you were meant to do !