This uncertainty is killing me.The wait is strangling my senses.Its all sweet, I can feel the beauty of being in love, but the very next moment the sweetness is overpowered by glimpses of bitter withdrawal in the face of unrequisition.And that I know to be the worst experience ever.Even though I know that I have it in me to face the truth with all the elegance in the world.The bewilderment and the emotional turmoil is leaving me numb, silent. I neither want to hurt myself nor run away from my responsibilities nor do I intend to drive the cheer away from my life.But I am scared…though I know how easy it is for me to switch from this state. I am untying the knots, the very knots which supported me in lurch. I feel no anguish, instead if I force myself to re-establish the lost ties, it may backfire. I know what I am losing. I know the hurt and pain I give to people who don’t deserve it.But u cant cling onto anything forever. You ought to be on the move.
You may pause for a while, but you cant stop. Cherish your past, but live in the
present.
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i believe you are too good to give hurt and pain to anyone. maybe inside you feel it, but you dont give it to others. much love to you on this journey. your souls journey.
That’s straight from the heart. Yes it hurts just as love brings joy. Be brave and be strong and this pain will eventually diminish and pass.
yep, you can’t cling on to anything forever, that’s true. my advice, learn to swim.
i just got back from my swimming session. and it’s wonderful. 
i’m not making any sense, i know. i’ll just come back when i’m back to my usual self. meanwhile, just take it easy.
Visibly you are in deep pain Sheila . I support you and encourage you . Are not you too shy ? Don’ t give up .
I read the Rose river s comment above and why not to try . This can help to get out the routine and know new people around . Go on !
Love
Michel
~ nods ~ ~ hugs ~
Love has its high and low. Sorry about your hurt feeling.
this too will be a memory but for now
I am not aware of what you’re going through, but yes-live in the moment, the minute the second. ryc: Go to John’s (Xanga) site to read about flagging-sounds like censorship to me.
words sometimes can best describe what we feel and yet can’t expound on what we should do…words elude me when I am in this state…but love always find a way to descrive it for me…just feel…keep the faith sister…I’ve read you before and you are such a blessing…
ryc: beautiful…
Makes sense to me. Clinging and aversion lead to misery.
You can never go wrong with Love. No matter how things turn out. To feel it is a gift from heaven.
este xanga. q vc me indicou. ele eh dj?
depois d um tempinho atualizei o meu hehe, bjs
Very honest.