April 27, 2006
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Pose, camera…. Xanga!!
I’m usually very outgoing. To be specific, for those who know, would compare me to Chandler from the show FRIENDS, always making fun out of things and situations. What does it matter? Hmmm.. It does when people don’t see me smile. it matters when I’m sick and doctors don’t find anything to write on their prescriptions anything but stress and some dare to write depression. I need those to show my boss to let her know I’m not ok and I don’t know how to explain what goes wrong in my world.
Life is tough, I know. But I have been a heck of a fighter for quite long now. And see now at almost 30 how short life can be. Not that I am pessimist, but I see now that I have to run after things people my age had the guts to dare much earlier. A problem to me? A bit, if that is added with some extra pounds and the recent found that I might want to have my own family. Damn, I even downloaded the piece of music I want to enter the church!!
Much has also changed ever since I became a Protestant, I know. And I’m proud and reliefed about that( if you are, you know what i mean). The thing is that many things sort of started 4 years ago. I’m a kid in a grown-up world. And a crazy one( kid or world? you decide…)
The thing is… I’m weirdly happy today. I have no clue about my future, I just know what I want. I won’t get rich and that has never mattered to me, but finding good jobs have been difficult lately. Paying studies have been hard. Paying bills… Oh… no comments.. But you know what? I am calm. I guess that is what rest in God’s hands mean. And I’m fine. Whatever that may be.
Good news? One year of dance is wonderful to me. Some specific dance courses as samba de gafieira and salsa make me feel really good. Coming back to gym, wow…I just needed that. Just got a new digital cam. Yes, THAT CAM that was keeping me away from posting… now I can show my world without excuses..
That also means that It’ll take a while for another what’s-going-on blog like this. Never mind… I’m back! And I’m well today. That’s enough. Thanks to God.
Comments (5)
Hey!!
… take care and thanks for remember me . 
.. beijos .. Jesse
That was a long time without news from you … I have missed you a lot .. and yeah .. this is a HI back to you .
good to see you back lady…
preciso d um curso d ingles. para ler os xangas hEhehe..
bom fds!!
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Sheila I commented your previous blog . I am surprised because I believed you had a job . Aren’ t you a teacher ?
I know you for long and I guess what you feel . I wish you good luck .
Love
Michel
I’m glad that you are back and in good spirits.
I’m going to take dance lessons with my friend, Forrest, this summer! I’m so excited! I think we are going to learn salsa and general ballroom. It will be fun.