June 7, 2002
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And then, I´m back again. Thing s happen with some explanation, but I won´t add any reasons nor take any conclusions not even mention any theory or hypotheses. All of a sudden, inside my world, things have lost their meaning. Everything is free and worthless. How funny my new condition is! I dont need to worry about happiness anymore. Don´t need to worry about the lack of meaning in whatever happens around, the whys and becauses and the boring happy ending meaning stuck in every truth.
I´m light as in all meanings of it.
I have been unwilling to carry on with my blogging life. And that is a bit due to the vanishing of my virtual inspiration. I felt kind of lost in this huge empty space, and the lack of his presence has made my stay here seem a bit nonsense. But I don´t worry anymore. He knows how to find me.
This short time spent in Curitiba has helped me think clearer. I must say that the whole environment has helped too. It was not so cold, but colder than here in Sao Paulo. And the sky… For long I haven´t seen such a light grey one. I shall write more about it when I have the snaps developed.
But my perception has changed. And I know now it is for the best. What I didnt expect was that I had to go through it the hardest way. And I´m still changing. That means the hard way is not gone yet. But I feel happy to realise that, I can learn and still keep my essence during such a hard time.
I am indeed a Lotus.
Comments (18)
You are, indeed!
love,
sid.
I am glad to see you back . Good morning ( here it is 10 h am ) , Shy !
But i am a little worry when I read “have been unwilling to carry on with my blogging life. And that is a bit due to the vanishing of my virtual inspiration. I felt kind of lost in this huge empty space, and the lack of his presence has made my stay here seem a bit nonsense.” . Take courage , Shy , and best days will come soon .
Amitié à toi Michel
(((hugs))) I think this is good news your telling us.
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…to me, your post reads of coming through a tunnel to a path of light. Think that good news. You are confident and comforted.
MuSe
Be encouraged and be blessed this weekend
Cryptic as can be, but very nice. Good vibes coming through in this blog! Amber
welcome back
what does lotus mean?
kisses
Debby
We never doubt it for a minute
Welcome back
Wow… thats some enlightenment… how come I never have thoughts like these?
eu tb gostei do que escrevi…
meu portugues e pessimo.
usei me poder escrever poesias em sua língua linda… agora… que posso mal falar algumas sentenças…
muito prazer. sorriso.
oi oi oi… tudo bem?
Que legal q vc também gostou de Shrek… tipo… vc assistiu em inglês? Eu achei muito fofo a hora do Hood… hehehe
Teh mais
at differents turns in life u’ll find urself changing….smetimes for better smetimes for worse…..but they all hold a mirror to an undiscovered part of u…..good to here tht u r on the process…..take care….lotus even survives in mud!hugz*
i know, aasya..
i hope so too. ooh… i love the background. very pleasant to the eyes. hmm… dear, my blog is the place where i seek solace.
Well.. then again “some moments & experiences though at times very ephemeral can change ur whole outlook towards life”
Wish its a positive change