July 2, 2002
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Finally vacation has come. This semester has been so hard so far. Yet, I feel time has passed faster than before.
Right now, I could be overwhelmed by conflicts between my own needs, the needs of my family, and my responsibilities towards my job. As a result, I am feeling tense and stressed out, and wondering if the situation will ever be resolved. I don’t panic. It will – and I’ll be none the worse for it. The keyword is balance, and the solution lies in finding it. Get to it! I’ll want to put this behind myself.
Nurturing has always been part of my nature, and is especially so these days. But sometimes I feel lavish more attention on others than I do on myself. And this benefits no one. I find that ´ll have even more of myself to give when I take the time to fill my own emotional well. Some time off from good works will ultimately be to everyone’s benefit, mine especially.
Nonetheless, I´m looking for new opportunities as well. The field I´m in now may not be one that I want to be in the next years. I have been deeply considering working in another field, and who knows another city or country… I might be surprised at the opportunities out there.
During this two-week vacation, there will be some short trips. I´ve got some nice places to go, some good friends to visit in the country side. Hope to blog about it later. Much later….
Found this nice poem by Fernando Pessoa. It just makes sense right now. Wanted to share..
I Am Tired
I am tired, that is clear,
Because, at certain stage, people have to be tired.
Of what I am tired, I don’t know:
It would not serve me at all to know
Since the tiredness stays just the same.
The wound hurts as it hurts
And not in function of the cause that produced it.
Yes, I am tired,
And ever so slightly smiling
At the tiredness being only this -
In the body a wish for sleep,
In the soul a desire for not thinking
And, to crown all, a luminous transparency
Of the retrospective understanding …
And the one luxury of not now having hopes?
I am intelligent: that’s all.
I have seen much and understood much of what I
have seen.
And there is a certain pleasure even in tiredness
this brings us,
That in the end the head does still serve for
something.
(24.06.1935)
Comments (16)
You deserve the break….great poem.
What a lovely poem. I know the feeling so well. Not that I have it at the moment: it is overruled by an adrenaline high because of deadline stress. But it visits me in the time of peace and calm.
Enjoy your trips! Hope you come back re-energised
Your site looks so beautiful – peaceful – now it’s time for you to find some inner peace…relax and enjoy your visit with your friends…the country side trip sounds heavenly…
Have a nice relaxing break.
Take your vacation to fuel up. No use in draining yourself. Like you said no one benifits from it. Relax and have fun!
Balance is a good thing… here’s to restoration and resolution!
Have a wonderful vacation!!!
That is a great poem!! I hope you enjoy your time off!!!
Great poem Shy .
you have ” the teacher blues ” at the end of the scolar year . But you will have and enjoy good trips .
In your comment you recognize the picture like North Brazil and a little like your home . You are right . besides French always have loved Brazil .
Amitié and wihes of good vacations
Michel
wish u good luck in whatever decisions u make.
till then have a great vacation. enjoy. n take care
ps- dont forget to tell us all abt it.
I hope you have a great vacation. I myself am just back from one, of sorts. A week away. It really has rejuvenated me, and given me the energy to begin contributing to the human race again. There is absolutely no shame in doing things for yourself in the service of the world, since a dead person does no good in this world. When we’re exhausted, drained, cranky, burnt out, we’re not living up to our full potential.
As for switching fields, I’m with you on that one too. My wife and I are making preparations to pack up and move to South Korea in September, to teach English. It’s going to be a complete upheaval in our lives, but hopefully in a good way. We’re too young not to seize the variety which life puts in front of us.
So again, have a great trip, wherever you may go!
Take care
-J-
1st of all – about the new look – Keeewwwlllll! DIL SE ???? (Can’t help pondering) u have too much of Indian influence! Hmmm…
About the blog… Take it easy & freak out in the holidays! have a terrific time! New opportunities seems like a good idea! Nice poem
BTW thanks for the comments – u are such a darling!
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Fernando Pessoa is one of the greatest portuguese poets ever…
I know what you mean about being tired, i’m really tired myself… but i only have three more weeks left and then i’ll be off for a great long time!!!!!