July 29, 2002
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I think I need to stop blogging at night. I feel like writing about ordinary things, but my thoughts dont seem to allow me to write simple. I wonder why I just cant keep it simple. It may be because I´m usually tired and it is hard to put thoughts in order like that. Maybe I just can´t write… or maybe I wonder too much!
What I mentioned about the life I have chosen was simply the fact that I live by myself. And I work for anything I want in life. Alone. And you know what? I´m free, and this is wonderful! I like what I do, where I work, where I live. But sometimes this is scary. As in, if I need support, I´m the only one I can count with. Actually everyone´s life is like that. But the presence of family and supporting parents give the idea of protection. But I´m not complaining.
I think what most Brazilians worry now is about the economic situation in the country. The price of the dollar is going skyrocketing. We´ll have presidential elections this year, and everyone now worries about what will come next. People still fear the dark shadow left by Argentina. I have been postponing some projects to wait and see how things are going to turn out. And most of the people have been doing the same too. It is nothing hard now. But we´re starting to feel something is around the corner. And sincerely. I do hope it is something good.
I want to share another poem by Fernando Pessoa. Just as a complement…
At Times I Have
At times I have happy ideas,
Ideas suddenly happy, in among ideas
And the words in which they naturally shake free …
After writing, I read …
What made me write that?
Where have I been to find that?
Where did that come to me from? It is better than
me …
Shall we have been, in the world, at the most, pen
and ink
With which somebody writes properly what we here
jot?…
(18.12.1934)
translated from Fernando Pessoa by J.Griffin
Comments (14)
The feeling that you need support….I know. I live together, but still it’s there. I also work alone. It’s my style.
The situation in Brazil is scary. The consulting office I work with does many projects in Latin America. We see the shift of institutions who provide the funds from the large countries (Arg, Braz) to the Andean countries, because they prefer investing in ‘stable’ countries. Argentina is of course worst off. I hope Brazil will recover. I can’t even imagine what it’s like, but it must be awful living in uncertainty about the future.
Love the poem. Very much.
The night time is all I have to write sometimes….yes I know what you mean.
Your independence is a precious thing obviously but Is the man ( or woman) made to live alone ?
Simple question , of course , Shy .
All the best for you
Michel
About Brazil ., this is a huge country and It should be working .
i think that something is always lying around the corner for all of us….especially so now……the whole world is at unrest, and not just brazil…..but i do hope that when things have all played out, the world will be a better place for all!
I think the ideas in your blogs are just right… and I think night time is the best for creative thought…
dont stop bloggin at nite. n even if u do, dont stop coming online. id miss u!
great poem,btw. n i pray for the best for u n ur country. take care.
Fernando Pessoa is an astounding poet, I have him and Augusto dos Anjos in the most deepest admiration
Ideas could be just like rain or snow, just come down to us sometimes, and we have to catch them and jail them to the paper or they fly away again and they ll be lost.
Ciao and wish you a great day.
Carlo/Simon
I have never been alone. Sometimes I long for it..and wonder what its like, or if I could even handle it.
*hugz* Thats a great poem.
I love living alone….well, I don’t (live alone, that is), but when the parents go away I get a taste of it……
For me I am content to be alone, yet long for and at times need those very special people, my husband, my children, my trustworthy friends in my life, thank goodness their just a call away.
independency has profits and debits…just enjoy it ( I feel you are)
and.. about Brazil…in the overall…there are many things to change…Ohw man…I wanna be the prez of Brazila nd make some changes…
I swear to God i would do some much things for that country…there are so many things to do…and so little will fromt hose who are in the power….
It sucks when is like that.. right??