April 11, 2003
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Trapped
Much is done, I’m free of many obligations, but by being free I feel trapped of my own freedom. Everything that once used to be rushed and nervous now seems so calm and relaxed. What was previously lacking has now been fulfilled. Shouldn’t I be feeling much better than this? This crappy, dull, state of nothing? Today should’ve been an amazing day but instead I’ve felt as if I could not do anything… Eh, it’s hard to explain… I no longer consider my work something hard to put up with. I relax while I teach. I learn as well. Simplicity is all I have yearned, and my mind is simpler now. I feel light and free… By being free from so many worries, I found other concerns I did not have to think about before. I used to be right on track with a crammed, set schedule but now I’m not and yet I’ve got nowhere to go and nothing to do for just plain fun! I still have my Literature chapters to study for and the more at hand would be my homework due tomorrow but those are minor issues at the moment for moi. I guess all I can do is wait until the next holiday or something when my friends have free time when I do. I don’t know… who knows… The only sure thing I learned from Quantum Physics is that no one can be sure of anything (darn Heisenberg… he screwed it all up for all of us) so how could I be sure? Okay, well I also don’t know if any of that made sense to anyone else other than me, hmm…
They say great things are ahead of us,
They tell us we should live our lives,
“The future will depend upon us”
The world is so so full of lies.
They say that time is of the essence,
Teach us time is short and quick,
We know our time is truly precious,
But then they drain the hours, tick tick.
Hypocrites! I say, it don’t make sense,
[it's a] High price to pay, spent behind a fence.
Food For Thought: How do you define time? Is it something definite or more abstract? What is it about time that attracts such a wide audience?
What did you do today? Is there something you could have done today but didn’t? When it comes to be tomorrow, how would you refer to today in the broadest way, e.g. “bad”, “sucked”, “good”, “wonderful”, “a waste”?
Finally, something more on the brighter and surreal side of life. What comes to your mind when you hear the word, “chance”? How would you define chance? How does it relate to the word “luck”? When one says “Fat Chance”, it seems that it means absolutely the same as the phrase “Slim Chance”. Both being a negative phrase of chance, how would you describe a positive chance? Surely it couldn’t be something like “Normal-sized Chance”? Think of some other phrases that might mean something the same or similar. Bye Bye!
Comments (8)
chance is a light shifty thing. and always good in my book. i spend too much time thinking about time. like the whens and whats. i have to breathe and let go more. sigh… have a wonderful weekend.
You call this nonsense… hmmm…
Ah, I’m so full now, from all the “food for thought” you served
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Time… Time is a man-made concept. Time is nonlinear. We could well be existing at the same “time” as all the people throughout history…. It’s a theater, a play…. I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore, ha ha ha. As for chances, well, I do think that we run into “coincidences” because our consciousness/subconsciousness directs us to them.
Time is but a series of moments felt and lived. Everything else is a mathematical count. Or so i believe.
After all, i did count time to be near my loved one, and then i forgot there was such a thing once with him.
I understand your feeling of trappness… i feel it too somehow. I guess it has something to do with us not feeling we’re achieving something important. Having a goal maybe. I’m not sure how it applies to you. Only you have the answer for that. But, try to see the beauty on such freedom and appreciate it before you get yourself into your next chapter – where you won’t have any time for anything else.
Take care
you said: “They say great things are ahead of us”
are they right? how can they know? não quero parecer pessimista, mas acho que quem diz isso na verdade não sabe de nada.
só passando por um blue period
espero que você esteja ok.
beijos
That is very good food for thought!!
:D
hey lotus, thank you for taking the time to read my poetry
it is nice to know someone enjoys reading them.
time is often only a yardstick of memory.
action is a function of time and chance is a function of action.
i don’t know if that makes sense, but well, think about it