April 25, 2003

• Falling again…
  Allowing oneself to think too much about the problems of the present is never is good thing. The more you think about the difficulties that you are facing, the more depressing it all seems. That’s what happened to me during phylosophy lecture today. In that span of fifty minutes, a dozen thoughts collided in my mind. Unplesant thoughts were being acted out before me even though there was only my semi-sucky professor standing in front of me. It wasn’t that bad, it wasn’t more than I could take, but it wasn’t nice at all.
  
  

  Anyway, now I’m sitting in front of the computer and not allowing myself to think too much of such unpleasant things, which when taken in a larger perspective aren’t such a big deal. Some of the problems haven’t gone away yet, but I’m deciding to change my attitude towards them. I just see no point in being overly frustrated about anything. It just isn’t good for one’s heart.  There will be ups and there will be downs. I might be at a peak or a trough now, on the ascent or descending into worse things, but looking at the larger picture, life is still fine. I can still try to turn things around. I’m still trying.

  • 4:50 pm
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