January 23, 2004
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Deep in my thoughts…deeper in my soul…
My self-esteem has been challenged lately by a fast-paced talker, unpleasant and uneasy situations. Well, I don´t accept things as they seem at first glance. There is a much deeper meaning brewing below the surface and I would be foolish not to recognize this when it comes around. I stick to my guns and stay grounded. New fangled devices and big promises may not be all that they are advertised to be.
There is a conflicting push and pull aspect to these days, that may be leaving me feeling unsure about how to proceed. On the one hand I may be feeling like I want to plan things out and get your emotions stabilized so that I can function at full capacity. On the other hand, there may be something pulling me up into the clouds. This is indeed my heart talking. I listen to it and find a compromise between these two energies.
I ponder and find little comfort in my emotions, specially due to the amount of time I have been taking to study God´s words and share information and experience with some dearly friends. Now I also to take time to simply stick to business. Concentrate on getting things done in my regular brand new routine. I had to create a plan and stick to it. This is not a day to deviate from the norm, nor is it a time in which I will find sympathy from others, so I stick close to home and take care of my personal business( read= I´m painting my apartment…). Time is precious, so I have been trying not to waste it.
In a nutshell, I have been doing very well but today I might be feeling more focused than ever. The path ahead of me seems clear and well defined, and I´m looking forward to the future with motivation and anticipation. I´m considering taking a long trip abroad, and going back to school for an advanced degree. This is a good day to start doing some research and finalizing plans. Let me Go to it
Comments (9)
querida,
eu estive ausente do xanga sim… preguiça de postar tb, mas acima de tudo achava que faltava algo de relevante pra falar. Um amigo meu começou um blog e por causa do entusiasmo dele resolvi escrever o meu.
Entusiasmo. Vc sabia que entusiasmo significa “cheio de Deus”? Palavra bonita essa né?
Beijos
Patrick
PS espero que esteja tudo bem com vc na sua new home.
You are right Shy to have defiance against the clever talkers .
A trip abroad for an advanced degre . But it is a wonderful news , that !
Love
Michel
Life is a strange journey and people of many guises come and go. I think as long as one can keep doing whatever one desires to most other things work out. The advanced degree sounds very very exciting. good luck Shy!
yep, new moon week, you go to it!
Never trust fast talker.
I understand the conflicting push and pull….
I call them roots and wings syndrom, one part wants to be like roots and the other part wants to fly to the sky like wings. Important is to fly without losing the roots.
keeps focused and you will be all right.
Ciao
good luck with your plans!
Dear,
nao se preocupe em “commentar decentemente” no blog, hehehe, qualquer comment tá valendo e me deixa feliz
Settle down in your new place first, and then you’ll have plenty of time to come back xangaing.
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Pa
go do it girl!!
why not go abroad for an advanced degree? i really feel that it’s the best way to see a new place and have enought time to absorb it, at the same time it’s a multi-layered education. you get much more than you initially thought you would
good luck and lots of wishes
anu
So go for it… wishes…warm ofcoarse…