July 10, 2004
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…I’m finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don’t really know what i’m gonna do when i get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace…
Breathing by Lifehouse
I’m squinting my eyes and staring future straight in the face, and the future is staring right back at me!!
And while I dilate my pupils and grind my teeth and paint my war face on, in the back of my head I’m thinking of the two choices I have. One to bow down and give in once more and take the easy and safe route out and sleep walk through another 5 years waiting til tomorrow to see what happens, or to take a leap of faith and jump in with both feet and tap into a malnourished and unexplored part of me with all its potentials. potentials that very well might not be there at all! The later makes me shiver with excitement and quiver with fear. On a good day the scale tips toward the enthusiasm I feel but on other days the amount of anxiety is crushing.
I saw this film last week about a couple of mountaineers that ran into serious life threatening problems while descending a difficult peak in Peru. ‘touching the void’ it was called. at one point one of them said something like ‘I knew at that point that I had to make a decision and it didn’t matter if it was right or wrong. I knew it would’ve been the end of me if I just sat there and did nothing’.
The more I swirl around in the nugget it becomes more clear that there is no turning back once a person, due to whatever circumstance, starts to really believe in themselves ( I’m even closer to that!). But turning back at that point would literally be the end of it, or at least some part of us that has everything to do with being a human will shrivel and die.
Comments (18)
You have such a nice way of writting. I like it a lot!
eu tambem sou brasileira de Sao Paulo… mas moro nos states… passa la no meu site!
no shriveling…you are destined for a brighter path…
There’s no safe way.
…I know what you mean. As I have been reminded lately, it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. Take small steps on the path to your soul – allowing a smooth transition. With each you’re closer to you and the next step is easier and clearer. You’ll get there in a sane way. Hugs,
MuSe
I vote for the leap of faith. every single time.
thanks for visiting. you have a nice site.
lisa
as you remember, every great turn is made with a first small step….
I saw u comment on Joe_x and decided to come look… btw I love LIfeHOuse
hang in there
its all about thejump… and in my opinion there are many times you will get a chance to jump. so dont worry about messing it up – just jump!
Life is about taking risks and never know what will happen!!!
I hope your choice goes for the best!
RYC: lack of stress???? You’re so lucky, girl!!
Have a nice day!!
You go girl!
I recon you should take that risk… But I think you’ve already made your desicion.
~Morellowilltryandgetonlinemoreoften…
that leap of faith will scare the shit out of you and change you for the better forever.
Hi babe!!! Dont forget to tell me when you are coming to my city!
Lots of kisses!
Good luck
Ma
Taking risks, most of the time is the way of being totally successful when there’s a challenge..
Several kisses
Luiz
Thinking about you this morning and wondering how you are. anna mae This
morning when I wakened And saw the sun above, I softly said, “Good
morning,
Lord, Bless everyone I love.”
Luiz
Right away I thought of you
And said a loving prayer,
That He would bless you specially,
And keep you free from care.
Luiz
I just saw ‘Touching the Void’ too. It’s incredible to think what those guys came through.
And you said it … “have to believe in yourself”