July 24, 2004
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I got nothing to say. nothing I want you to hear or read or feel at least. I know regardless of how I say it, regardless of how vividly I describe it or eloquently present it you will only feel or understand it with as much importance to you as the fly in the stomach of the pigeon that shit on my shoulder this morning. That’s just the way it is. Comparing, it will move you that much and thats not enough. not today. maybe tomorrow!?! maybe not!?! maybe I’ll let it sit there?! I don’t think I have to share it with anyone to know that it actually exists! It’s nice to do that though. u know, share stuff with people u care about, but something’s belong in the khomre, fermenting! this might be one of them!! what if through the process of expression, as it goes through my head and heart and fingers I’m forced to choose words that don’t exactly reflect what it really means, and that by itself will change its real understanding for me? and I’ll loose it!! what is that theory that we change things even though we’re just observing them?! I would hate that. I want to know it just as it is. same shape, same color, same weight, same taste. Maybe Some things are meant to be silent. like the roaring hush of deep underwater currents as oppose to the chriping sound of a shallow creek. maybe that’s what crying is for? when there is so much there and nothing to say it turns into a form of self-expression and instead of the words the tears flow. maybe to get what homer realy meant the odyssey should be pages and pages of tear drops! and i dont mean when we feel the extremes of a certain emotion, but rather thoughts, realization, comprehension, with all senses in full swing. and this could be of anything, could be of beauty, of truth. sometimes I dont understand what I feel, other times I understand what I feel and what I know, and in very few occasions I fully believe it too. so how does one explain that? how do u put it into words? how do you explain the feeling of flight? or birth? or sex with someone you love? is this making any sense?!?
like I said. I have nothing to say.
Comments (11)
some of my greatest moments have gone in silence…
sometimes great things come from nothing. ^_^
It made a lot of sense to me. Thanks,
MJ
The silence can still be the best answer for a question once in a while…
Probably Tarzan and Jane did have not much to say to each other….but communication is not in clear words or ideas. Just have faith as someone once said, about 2000 years ago.
there is no way to explain such things … you say it and if the person you say it to has experinced the same they will know immediately; if they havent then … word just wont do it.
take care:)
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